Friday, January 4, 2008

Thoughts, explanations, motives, twists and turns

I often do not enjoy writing about myself. I find it to be rude to force oneself upon others in any aspect so you shall find updates to this diary of sorts to be very infrequent at best. I usually do like to write about reflections and thoughts though, so expect that.

There are about 250 diaries out there on Caledon and its people. Events are covered from every aspect of Caledon including those of Babbage, Winterfell, and many of our friends and Allies. Seek those out for they shall cover much more than I can possibly cover and enjoy life through their eyes.

I shall though break my vow slightly and offer a bit of insight upon myself to let the reader know my reasons for doing this said diary, upon which afterwards, I shall and in the future discuss more of my thoughts on matters and events that transpire instead of being the braggart.

If you have read my introduction, then yes you know I have an unusual history. I have since changed my habits and my ways. "What ho? One cannot change such as thee for a leopard cannot change its' spots!", you may say. True. However I must admit, my experience, from what I have seen and heard, is very unique. It sometimes even defies explanation.

For one, I arrived in the lands of Caledon an adult. Not a child, a teenager, or of any other point in my life that I can barely recall. Second, I appeared as I did originally upon my death. I was rather tall, in fact, my people where on average, only 4' 9" to 5' 2" in standard English or American measurements. I am at present, and as back then, 7 foot. My first life, I was a giant of a man. Believe me, it was more trouble than it was worth since buildings were difficult to enter, I consumed enough food for three men, and I believe that my height lead to my eventual death since as a warrior, I stood out amongst my peers. It did help as I was often a rally point but that is another tale. Third, and this is also very strange, I no longer speak my native tongue. I recall certain words and sentence structure but try as I might, I seem to be fluent in English only even though I was originally able to speak some 3 tongues which included Etruscan, Latin, Greek and about 12 dialects of the area tribes and people indigenous to my lands.

Such is the way of Gods.

My patron deity is Menrva. By your accounts, she has manifested herself into what you call Minerva. She is the one that tested me, taught me, and granted me this gift of a second chance. I know, it sounds silly, but it isn't to me. This is a gift I have no intent of wasting. I shall never betray her or speak ill of her for her wrath is mighty and her kindness beyond measure.

I am an honest man. I tell the truth but don't offer it unless asked and what others tell me I keep. I gladly offer anything of myself though. I hold friends dear to me. If I am your friend, you may ask anything of me and if empowered, I shall give. I shall hurt no one. My enemies are those that hurt me, Caledon, or that which I love and my wrath while not broad and grand, is close and deep. If you are a friend, you have a friend for life and if your an enemy, I am not easy to forgive.

I love everything. Passion, is a gift finally granted me from a previous of life that had none. I enjoy it and express it freely. While many have expressed concern about my passion and its boundless borders, rest assured that even if others do not feel as I do, I do understand that my emotions may make others feel uncomfortable. Please understand, I do not follow the dictates of society when it comes to passion for no law or will of man should contain and constrain passion. No boundaries mean just that but I shall respect others thoughts, feelings, and desires primary so if I offend, please understand and let me become aware.

I have been gifted by finding Caledon. Its people are so diverse. Each is a shining beacon of the power, creativity, passions and dreams of man. Everyone I have met, though unique has one thing in common: They take their unique talents, passions, dreams and loves and contribute to the idea of community. With that they give it life, make it strong, make it a breathing and living entity where anything can happen. We are stronger from our individual parts bound together with a purpose, to make a home for universal life.

I begin this new journey as an infant with wisdom. I have experienced much but the road ahead is full of wonderment, passions, new life, and the sheer being of others. I look forward for even though I can see its windy, the path is rough and full of rocks, steep and it dips, it shall be a journey worth taking.